Rusty Armor

I keep a journal....very different from a diary, by the way. I don't normally show or read my journal to anyone. It's one of those few things I am very private about. But I thought I would share my latest entry that I wrote on Wednesday night after coming home from the Bible study and prayer meeting, in yet another attempt to stay "wide open like a lake".

"The weather here in Nashville is very hot, but inside I feel as cold as stone. I went to a Bible study in an apartment complex in a rough part of Nashville last night and saw hurting, broken people. I listened to their tragic stories of death, addictions, and hard pasts and was somehow unmoved...somehow hardened....and quite honestly, just didn't care. I am ashamed of this and I walked away asking myself, "why am I not hurting for these people? Why am I not moved to tears and prayer by their burdens?" And I immediately knew the answer. Perhaps because I have been so absorbed in myself, my life, my petty problems, that I have been to selfish to look past myself and see the needs of others. Perhaps because my "armor" lies in a rusty pile in the corner of the room, untouched and unworn, for some time. No there is no "perhaps" about it. Those are definite reasons.
And as those broken, hurting people (who I am not so different from) opened themselves up to me and my church family, little did they know how they were being used by the Lord to convict me of my lack of openness, of my lack of burden, of my lack of genuineness.
I know that Satan would have me continue to be selfish and only care about my problems. He would have me continue being the hypocrite and pretending to have it all together. But through the power of Christ in me, I will fight to die to self each day. And seek to live for the glory of Jesus Christ."

There is nothing better than homemade whipped topping. The end. Cool whip? What's that?

The pie phase continues as I prepare two more pies for Sunday lunch. This week it's Loveless Cafe's peanut butter pie and Betty Crocker's banana cream pie. :)

I'm working from 4 to 9 tonight at the Farmhouse Restaurant at Fontanel. COME SEE ME! The food is fabulous and sometimes there's live bluegrass. :)

Huzzah!....I mean... Hey ya'll!

Last night was my very firs night as a Farmhouse Restauant at Fontanel waitress! It was SO much fun!!!! For a while we had some live bluegrass to wait tables to and all of the serbvers were practically line dancing to our tables. :P I got there an hour before my shift started so I could figure out what in the world I was doing and after a little observing I tackled my first table. :) Actually I didn't really tackle them...that might have gotten me fired, so I decided smiling and walking up to them was a better idea. Everyone I waited on was very friendly and I've decided that Canadian people are the funnest people on the planet. Eh? I had two different tables with people from Canada and my stomach hurt from laughing so much! One of them was like, "where is he healthy food?". The answer to that is, "not here". :)

The computer system we use is really simple and once I get used to it I think it's going to go much faster. I only handled two tables at a time since it was my first night, but they might give me three tonight. It is really tiring work but so fun and there's nothing like crashing into bed after a night of good hard work. I slept like a baby last night and my feet were protesting when I put them on the floor.....I have got to find some major comfy shoes. I thought I had some, but apparently not. Maybe waitressing has no hope of coming home with not-aching feet?

Any-hoo, it was a blast and I can't wait for tonight! Come eat at the Farmhouse Restaurant and see me!!!!! The food is FABULOUS, everything from the veggies to the meat is from local farmers, and the desserts are homemade. I haven't stopped hearing about the hummingbird cake and I personally had a bite of the bread pudding....AWESOME! And I had fried chicken for dinner....oh goodness...there just aren't words....and the same goes for the baked mac and cheese. I work 4- close tonight so come on over!!! Pretty Please!!!! with butter on top!!

-Jessie Rae

Who needs therapy when there's baking to do? :P Look out church family, I've got 2 pies coming your way tomorrow. Blueberry and chocolate cream. :d

Simple Pleasures

Earlier this evening I found myself alone at home. And instead of going to bed at 7:30 like I was inclined to do, I began doing a few things that needed done in the kitchen. I scarcely do any sort of housework without music and this time was no exception. I turned on my Owl City playlist and threw the volume up as loud as it would go. :) As I ran water in the sink to do dishes, I glanced up through the windows of the sunroom that look out into the backyard. And what I saw made me smile....fireflies. :) My wheels began turning and the dishes were forgotten. I grabbed my iPod and it's speakers and a mason jar and went outside to be a kid again. Thankful for outside electrical outlets, I plugged in my music again and thought it only fitting to catch fireflies to the song.....Fireflies by Owl City. My lightning bug catching technique is a little rusty and I wasn't to successful, but I had fun. My Dad and brother came home to find me prancing in our backyard in my pink plaid pajamas with a glowing mason jar in my hands. Ross was all too happy to join and with his rather good firefly catching skills we caught at least 6 or 7. I enjoyed it thoroughly and was glad to make a great memory with my brother. To any of you who may have been worried about the well-being of the fascinating little insects, they were promptly set free and none were harmed. :)

Jessie Rae

P.S. Sorry to those of you who would prefer that the music not start automatically..but it was a must for the effect of the post. Thanks for understanding. :P