Less Like Scars

This morning I wanted to blog a bit of how I'm feeling spiritually right now, this second, this moment. But as I tried putting it into words, my efforts at really telling you what's going on in my heart completely flopped. However, I found a song that has written my heart out already. I think that's why I love music so much. Because someone much more brilliant than me can put into words what I want to say but can't. So I'll just post the lyrics and play you the song. It's by Sara Groves, one of my favorite Christian singer/songwriters. This song is so beautiful and I think everyone has been here at one point or another...and if you haven't...you will. :) Enjoy, Dear Reader/Listener!

Less Like Scars

It's been a hard year
But I'm climbing out of the rubble
These lessons are hard
Healing changes are subtle
But every day it's

Less like tearing, more like building
Less like captive, more like willing
Less like breakdown, more like surrender
Less like haunting, more like remember

And I feel you here
And you're picking up the pieces
Forever faithful
It seemed out of my hands, a bad situation
But you are able
And in your hands the pain and hurt
Look less like scars and more like
Character

Less like a prison, more like my room
It's less like a casket, more like a womb
Less like dying, more like transcending
Less like fear, less like an ending

And I feel you here
And you're picking up the pieces
Forever faithful
It seemed out of my hands, a bad situation
But you are able
And in your hands the pain and hurt
Look less like scars

Just a little while ago
I couldn't feel the power or the hope
I couldn't cope, I couldn't feel a thing
Just a little while back
I was desperate, broken, laid out, hoping
You would come

And I need you
And I want you here
And I feel you

And I know you're here
And you're picking up the pieces
Forever faithful
It seemed out of my hands, a bad, bad situation
But you are able

And in your hands the pain and hurt
Look less like scars

And more like
Character

Worth Fighting For

Instead of getting ready for work, I went looking for this speech from Lord of the Rings. :P I don't know why but I was thinking about it yesterday and wanted to watch it. It is my favorite part of all the movies and I tear up every time I watch it. And I think if we listen closely there is a deeper meaning than just a pep talk for the plot of the movie. It can apply to everyday life. Anyway, I won't ramble about it, I'll just let you watch it. Pure awesomeness right here:

Pics from the recent past

This is me in my brother-in-law's truck. IT WAS SO MUCH FUN! We took it to my home away from home...Sonic. :) Like for real, I live there.





And this is Sister and me in our awesome shades. My awesome shades are, at the moment, missing. :( I had hid them at work so I wouldn't have to carry them in my apron and when I went back to get them they were gone, so I'm pretty sure someone is "walking around with a stolen set of shades!" (and if anyone can tell me where I got the previous quote from, besides Ashley, you will win the awesome movie quoter person title)

-Jessie Rae

Not so random

I love how God knows everything. Like yesterday and even just this morning, He knew that I needed encouragement and even a slight nudge in the right direction. So He sent what some would call random texts and an e-mail with exactly what I needed in them. But I know that they were not so random. God planned it that way, cause He's just awesome like that. So this morning, I will suit up once again to fight the good fight and by God's grace I will do the same tomorrow and the next day and the next.

Here is a quote that was in my "not so random" e-mail from a dear Sister in Christ:

"We are not battling by ourselves―God battles for us! James is saying [in James 4], 'Don't you know that the Spirit who lives inside you envies intensely? In the middle of the battle you can't forget that God is a jealous God. He loves you too much to make room for other lovers. He will oppose your proud and self-absorbed living, not because he is against you, but because he loves you.' Praise God that he will settle for nothing short of the final victory in our hearts. Our hope to be who we were meant to be is directly tied to his jealous desire for our hearts. ...This jealous God is a giver of grace, the most powerful weapon in the war for the heart."

And in case I haven't said this lately: I LOVE MY CHURCH FAMILY!!!!!!!!!!! A LOT. THE END.


-Jessie Rae

P.S. Apparently I have a sparkly frugal ninja in my bedroom. Long story. Kinda creepy. O.o.

So here you have it! If you haven't already seen Jack, here is a pic of him. :) We took him to get tags transferred from the previous car I had bought(some of you will remember Juliet) and on our way to the downtown county clerk office, my Dad and I saw a somewhat humorous sight. A red pickup passed us only to get pulled over by a motorcycle police man about 2 seconds later. This in itself is slightly entertaining...but when Dad looked to see who might be in the drivers seat, it was none other than Coach Fisher of the Tennessee Titans. Hehe! He was most likely on his way to football practice since we were just a hop, skip, and a jump from the practice stadium. :P

I don't work till 4 today so I'm getting things done around the house...including making a coconut cream pie. Why, you ask? Because one of the guys in the kitchen at the Farmhouse Restaurant doesn't believe I can bake.....so I thought I would show him a thing or two. Watch it completely flop and crush my pride.....:P I am taking a chance here, because I don't even like coconut, so I can't say that I even like my own coconut cream pie. So, I am relying heavily on the compliments and opinions of my family and friends.....I hope you people were being honest. :)

Today I am thanking the Lord for the music to dance to, a job that I love, co-workers that I get along with, His control over the weather, a car with a/c, a mom that I can call my best friend, a Dad who makes coffee every morning he's home without fail, a brother that keeps life interesting, a sister who gets my stupid humor, a brother-in-law who can quote P&P with the best of them, the grace to get up this morning (even if it was almost 10:00), and simple pleasures of life like cute aprons. :)

Captain Jack

So for those of you who didn't know.....I now have a car! A 2001 Ford Taurus that is a boring sort of greenish grayish color. It is sooooo awesome and wonderful and I love it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I don't have picture yet but when I do I'll post it.
I'm also going to probably post my work schedule on here so everyone will know when I'll be at the restaurant so you can come see me. :) Tomorrow I go in at one o' clock and I'll probably be there till 6:30 or 7:00. Yummy food and on weekends, live bluegrass. :)

-Jessie Rae
p.s. The car's name is Captain Jack Sparrow.

I HAVE A CAR! details to come later. :)