Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Great is Thy Faithfulness

Oy. Today was just one of those days. Ok so, take that back. This week has kinda been one of those weeks. I've been really really struggling with discontentment and just anxiety over God's plan for my life. And a lot, a lot, a lot of impatience. On top of that, I was having a bit of a pity party. Ok, so a really big pity party. I am a really good pity party thrower. I mean, I can really throw down on some self-pity. Like I said, it's just been one of those weeks. Consequently, when today rolled around, I wasn't really in the mood to go to Bible study or even prayer meeting. Confession: I was thinking of saying I didn't feel good and just stay home. Thankfully, I didn't do that. And God was so good in giving me exactly what I needed to hear in Bible study....in fact it was slightly creepy how, it was almost directed straight at me. I don't think Jeremy is a mind reader, but after tonight, I have my suspicions. And then! On top of an awesome Bible study in Luke, prayer meeting was so very encouraging and uplifting. Talking about Christ and His amazing-ness and encouraging each other in our struggles. And come to find out, I'M NOT THE ONLY ONE WHO STRUGGLES! Gee, who knew? ;) I also had an opportunity to have a more in depth conversations with people who are older and wiser, and just after talking things out, it helps me to put things into perspective. And realize that it really is going to be ok and everything really will work out. Sigh.
I think I just mostly rambled in the above material, but it had to come out somehow before I could even think of getting any sleep. :P
Please keep praying for me!!! I so appreciate it!!!

-JRae

P.S. I miss my Mommy. The End

2 comments:

Tom Gabbard said...

JRae, Yep, you can always be assured that you have many fellow "strugglers" on this journey! But thanks be to our merciful and gracious God, that He has given us one another as we struggle so that we don't struggle alone! I am always reminded also that when another believer ministers to us and encourages us.....it is actually Christ ministering to us through a member of His body !! Truly, Great is His Faithfulness !!

Ashley said...

Sorry that I stole our Mommy away :)
Your honesty and transparency are inspiring.
I love you.